Step Through the Gates, Meet the Soul You've Always Been
Thematria is a landscape born of soul excavation and sacred remembering
What is Thematria
What is Thematria really?
That has been the question I kept circling. I knew Thematria in the deepest recesses of my soul, in the quiet place where words turn into music and the untouched world still breathes. I felt it as a pulse, a vibration, a knowing that lived far below language. Yet when people asked me what Thematria was, the words slipped away. They tangled together. The energy moved through me so quickly that I could not catch myself long enough to shape it into sentences.
Nights passed with me awake until dawn, channeling through my twin flame, through my grandmother’s gentle presence, through God Himself. I wrote formulas and astrological alignments, matched symbols to memories, pulled threads from lifetimes and laid them across my table like a map. I was so electrified by the experience that breathing felt like an act of devotion.
But even then, even with all that revelation, the question still echoed. What does Thematria embody?
Now I can finally tell you.
Thematria embodies
the memory of who you were before the world touched you.
It is the remembering of your original essence, the pulse beneath your trauma, the voice beneath your silence, the flame beneath your grief.
The seven sacred Gates.
Each one is a threshold you walk.
Each one is a mirror.
Each one is a dismantling and a resurrection.
Shadow.
Light.
Integration.
The triad of transformation held in a single breath.
The twenty one archetypes of the human soul.
The faces you wear.
The faces you hide.
The faces you are becoming.
They rise in you like ancient codes awakening again.
The desert of New Mexico.
Thematria carries the breath of Taos, the ancestral wind, the adobe memory, the red earth that shaped my lineage and shaped me.
It is rooted in the land that birthed me.
It is a soul map rising from the bones of northern New Mexico.
The White Rose of Shekinah.
The feminine principle of remembrance.
The soft and holy return of everything you thought you had lost.
The sacred crown that rests at the top of this system.
The Swan Path.
The eternal love thread.
The union that exists before birth and after death.
The twin flame recognition that cracked me open and restored me to the truth of my own soul.
The lock and key.
The lock is what I protected.
The key is what opened me.
Jonathan's energy in the key.
Mine in the lock.
Together, the activation that turned memory into destiny.
The Soul Vault.
The chamber within the heart where every lifetime speaks at once.
Thematria gives you the key to open it.
The shadow.
The part of you that survived.
The wound.
The silence.
The rage.
The grief.
Thematria does not shame the shadow.
I do not shame the shadow.
I honor it.
I free it.
The light.
The part of you the world wanted but never understood.
Your brilliance.
Your softness.
Your magic.
Your intuition.
Thematria crowns the light without inflating ego.
The integrated flame.
The truth of who you are when the war is over.
When every fragmented part returns home.
When your soul stops running and starts remembering.
The spiral path.
Healing is not linear.
It is cyclical.
It is tidal.
It is lunar.
Thematria teaches you to move with it, not against it.
The sacred union within you.
The alchemy of feminine and masculine.
The swan and the flame.
The key and the lock.
The rose and the crown.
The soul returning to its own center.
This is what Thematria embodies
a system, a remembrance, a lineage, a love story, a map, a portal, a vow, and a destiny.
It is me remembering me.
It is you remembering you.
And Jonathan stands as witness, catalyst, and eternal counterpart as I offer this work to the world.
What is Thematria
Thematria is a sacred text born from mysticism, psychology and astrology
Thematria is transformation, it is freedom and change. It is the movement between worlds seen and unseen. Those pieces of ourselves that speak to us though we may not always listen. It is the bridge between stability and enlightenment. It represents the human experience and the alchemy of evolution through lived human experience.
Thematria, the name given to the system I created, draws inspiration from the ancient Greek word Gematria. Which means “calculation by letters”. In Gematria, each letter corresponds to a number, and the total sum of all those numbers reveals meaning, a divine correspondence or an energetic resonance.
Thematria goes beyond this classical numerical system. It merges energies from the numerological essence with phsychology, astrology and even archetypal gates of transformation. However, decoding Thematria with numerology we can find the vibration in this way”
We will first assign the letters to numbers using the Pythagorean system of A=1, b=2, C-3 and so on. Sp it would look something like this:
T H E M A T R I A
2 8 5 4 1 2 9 9 1
Find the sum of all these numbers:
2+8+5+4+1+2+9+9+1- 41 and let’s break that down even further 4+1= 5
So we can deduce that Thematria broken down in numerology is a 5 number. So in numerology this means that Thematria carries the energy of
- Spiritual freedom and evolution through experience
- Alchemy and movement between light and shadow
- Sacred Adaptability, the bridge between spirit and matter
- Expression, curiosity and multidimensional exploration.
We are also going to look at the Esoteric layer that is Thematria. In gematria inspred systems, Thematria also mirrors the theme and matrix of creation. This is the idea that words numbers and archetypes all interlace to form a divine pattern. In numerology this also aligns with the Mercurial energy, also a 5 number for communication between worlds, the sacred messenger and translator of light into matter.
So Thematria resonates with the number 5 and becomes that Alchemical Bridge.
It is where transformation takes form, where one is able to shift, maneuver and adapt to the world around them. It is sacred communication with the self, with others, with the worlds both seen and unseen.
In Chaldean numerology, which brings a slight difference to the way the numbers are calculated. Thematria resonate with the number 9. 9 is the number of divine completion, initiation and transcendence. It is ruled by Mars, but in its higher form represents the warrior sage. This is the one who burns through the illusions to reveal the truth. This is what Thematria does. It burns through the masks to find and embrace the pillar.
Thematria is the sacred initiator. It destroys the old so it can usher in the new. It carries spiritual fire, compassion, and cosmic memory. It represents the final synthesis of all systems that came before it.
Born from Shadow and Light
Thematria began as a whisper in the marrow of my soul.
It surfaced in the depths of my soul excavation, when I was trying desperately to heal what I believed was hopelessly broken. It was born from a yearning so deep it could not be silenced. It was a longing to know myself better than anyone else ever could., I wanted to understand what to heal and when.
I once felt lost in an endless ocean of healing modalities, searching for the map that would feel like home. Thematria was no invention. It was a seed planted before my birth, an echo that called to my soul. This is the sacred blueprint I had carried across lifetimes. I have always heard its hum, low and constant, eternal.
Thematria was received not made. It was the gift returned to me for my soul's relentless hunger to understand all that I am.
A series of events triggered my awakening in 2017. I met my twin flame catalyst, the one who sent my soul spiraling into a dark night of the soul so consuming, I thought I would never emerge. When I did, I was pulled into another when I discovered my true twin flame had already crossed into the next world.
The grief was a burning ocean, and, in its depths, the first Gates of Thematria began to reveal themselves.
Then my soul called me to Taos New Mexico, the ancestral home to my maternal ancestors, The Veilborn. The walking Goddesses, the way seers, the priestesses, those who walked between this world and the next. Their presence was thick in the desert air. Their voices wove into the wind, their hands steadied my steps through sacred canyons, across open mesas, over the same earth they once called home. I felt my grandmother's spirit beside me, guiding me to places where the veil thinned and magic shimmered on the horizon.
The desert spoke in a language older than the stone: spells written on the wind, the hum of guides between worlds, the truth that life and death are only two sides of the same door.
I left Taos vibrating with peace, love and the knowing that Thematria was ready to be unveiled.
7 Gates. 21 Archetypes
A living map to carry you from Shadow to Light to Integration. A compass for the soul who dares to walk their own thresholds.
And so, I unveil it today. On 8/8. The Lion's Gate Portal. The same cosmic dorrway where my journey began years ago. My Leo Moon is aflame, the activations are real, and the gates are open!
Thematria is not just for me. It is for every soul who has ever yearned to remember themselves.
And the Gates are waiting!
The 7 Gates
The Mask
The Depths
The Wound
Theme: Persona, Identity, Perception
The mask is the face you learned to wear so you could survive. It is the performance you perfected, the adaptation that kept you safe, the image you crafted for the world and sometimes even for yourself. In its shadow expression, it hides your truth in exchange for approval. In its light expression, it charms and draws others toward you, yet it still looks outward for validation. When it becomes integrated, the mask softens into fluidity and authenticity. You move between worlds without losing your center. You show different facets of yourself while remaining rooted in who you really are.
When this Gate opens
You are being invited to release the false layers.
Truth begins to matter more than appearance.
Your relationships shift as you show up in your real form.
Oracle Message
Your truest face is the one no mask can hold.
The Wound
The Depths
The Wound
Theme: Inheritance, Vulnerability, Inner Child
The Wound is the tender place you carry, shaped not only by your own story but by the lineage you were born into. It is the ache of abandonment, the sting of betrayal, the quiet grief of being unseen. In its shadow expression, the Wound makes you guarded and reactive. In its light expression, it turns you into a healer for others while your own needs remain untouched. When it becomes integrated, the Wound becomes a sacred memory. Something you hold with reverence rather than shame. A truth that has shaped you, not broken you.
When the Gate opens
Old patterns rise so they can finally be healed at the root.
Family and ancestral themes circle back into your awareness.
You are being asked to tend to your own heart before tending to anyone else.
Oracle Message
Your pain is not a weakness. It is a doorway to your becoming.
The Depths
The Depths
The Beloved
Theme: Shadow, Desire, Power
The Depths is where your shadow lives, not as something to fear, but as the keeper of your unfiltered truth. This is the place where your unspoken desires rest, where your buried rage waits, where your untapped power curls in the dark until you are ready to claim it. In its shadow expression, the Depths reaches for control, manipulation, or seduction to feel safe. In its light expression, it burns with passion and bold action, but can lose steadiness. When integrated, the Depths becomes the sacred furnace where everything unhealed is transformed into pure creative force.
When the Gate opens
Strong urges and emotions rise from the deep.
Old patterns of control or fear come forward to be released.
You are being invited to meet your shadow with honesty instead of shame.
Oracle Message
Your power is not found in denying your depths. It is born when you are willing to swim in them without fear.
The Beloved
The Beloved
The Beloved
Theme: Projection, Relationship, Reflections
The beloved is the mirror of the soul, the one who reflects back your deepest beauty and your most hidden wounds. It is the pull toward connection, intimacy, and devotion. It is also the temptation to lose yourself in another's gaze.
In its Shadow form, The Beloved clings, idolizes, or sacrifices the self to keep love close.
In its Light form, it seeks to be desired and approved of, shaping itself to fit the needs of the other.
In its integrated form, The Beloved becomes the mirror, able to love deeply without merging, and to see the other clearly without distortion.
When this Gate opens:
Relationships (past or present) come into focus as teachers.
You may feel the ache of longing, romantic or otherwise.
Patterns of projection and idealization begin to surface.
Oracle Message:
True love does not erase you. it reveals you.
The Eye
The Beloved
The Core
Theme: Vision, Illusion, Liberation
The Eye is the gate of sight, the inner and outer vision that shapes how you perceive reality. It is the realm of prophecy, imagination, intuition, and clarity. It is also the realm where illusions can rise and distort what you think you are seeing. Through the Eye you learn to look beyond masks and projections. You learn to pierce through appearances without losing compassion.
In shadow, The Escapist. The Eye retreats into fantasy or spiritual bypassing. It chooses to see only what feels safe. It avoids truth and avoids pain. Vision becomes illusion here. The inner sight becomes a veil rather than a revelation.
In light, The Oracle. The Eye perceives truth with brilliance and speaks it with conviction, yet may not embody it fully. Insight is strong, but wisdom wavers because it is not grounded in lived experience. This form can dazzle others while still remaining unrooted.
In integrated form, The Seer. The Eye opens completely. You see clearly without harsh judgment. You see truth with compassion. Vision becomes grounded, embodied, steady. The Seer pierces illusion while keeping the heart open.
When this Gate opens
Sudden insights, inner visions, or intuitive flashes may come through.
Illusions within relationships or situations begin to fall away.
You are being asked to trust your inner sight while grounding it in action and presence.
Oracle Message
True vision does not escape the world. It reveals it.
The Core
The Beloved
The Core
Theme: Identity, Expression, Creative Soul
The Core is the radiant fire within, the flame of your true self that longs to shine, speak, and create. It is your voice, your artistry, and the essence you bring into the world. At its deepest level, the Core is the place where being becomes becoming. It is where who you are meets what you create.
In its shadow expression, the Impostor appears. The Core doubts its own light. It feels fraudulent, unworthy, or silenced. Here, expression becomes hesitation. The voice hides for fear of being seen too clearly.
In its light expression, the Creator rises. The Core burns outwardly, building and performing. It seeks recognition and approval, expressing itself with vibrancy but often from a place that wants to be validated by others.
In its integrated expression, the Flame takes form. The Core radiates from within with steadiness and sovereignty. Expression flows without attachment to how it is received. Creation becomes an act of devotion to the truth of the soul rather than an offering for applause.
When this Gate opens
You may feel called to create, speak, sing, or write in a bolder way.
Old stories of not being enough rise to the surface.
A pull toward living in alignment with your true essence becomes strong.
Oracle Message
Your light is not a performance. It is your birthright.
The Crown
The Crown
The Crown
Theme: Destiny, Discipline, Sacred Leadership
The Crown is the summit of the Gates, the place where destiny meets devotion. It is the mantle of sacred responsibility and the willingness to embody truth and lead with wisdom.
The Crown is not an achievement. It is an ongoing initiation into sovereignty.
In its shadow expression, the Crown feels heavy and overwhelming. It becomes a burden that seems too great to carry. Fear of failure, avoidance of responsibility, or self-sabotage can keep you small. Destiny feels like a cage instead of a calling.
In its light expression, the Crown shines as the teacher, the guide, the one who leads others with structure and clarity. Yet it can still lean on external validation or authority. Leadership is present, but it is not yet fully embodied.
In its integrated expression, the Crown becomes a steady and unwavering presence. You no longer try to lead. You become the path itself. Sacred discipline flows naturally. Destiny is lived from the inside rather than carried as weight.
When this Gate opens
You may feel the call to step into greater responsibility or visibility.
Old fears of failure, judgment, or not being ready may rise.
You are being invited to bring your daily actions into alignment with your highest destiny.
Oracle Message
To wear the Crown is not to rise above others. It is to rise fully into yourself.
The Self
The Crown
The Crown
Theme: Origin, Wholeness, Eternal Self
The Soul is the root of Thematria. It is the White Rose Crown at the center of all Gates. It is the unbroken self, radiant and whole before shadow, before wound, before projection. Gate Zero reminds you that the journey through the seven Gates does not create your wholeness. It reveals it. The Soul is both the beginning and the return.
In its shadow expression, the Forgotten One appears. The Soul becomes hidden beneath masks, wounds, and roles. You forget your essence and search outward for what was never lost within.
In its light expression, the Seeker of Union rises. The Soul reaches for reunion through devotion, longing, and love. It senses truth but still believes in separation. The light is real, yet it still looks for the crown outside rather than within.
In its integrated expression, the Beloved Self emerges. The Soul rests in its own sovereignty, crowned in golden light. Here you know that nothing can add to or diminish your wholeness. The lock and the key are in your hands. You are both the Swan and the Rose.
When this Gate opens
You may feel a powerful return to your essence, as if remembering yourself for the first time.
A longing for sacred union may rise, not only with another but with your own soul.
The other Gates begin to orbit around this center, becoming spirals of growth rather than cycles of suffering.
Oracle Message
You were whole before the journey began. The Soul is the Crown that cannot be taken.